Anxiety and going out...
Hi Guys!
I suffer really bad with anxiety and a little bit of depression, since I was about 14 I have suffered with anxiety, I used to be scared to go on buses, trains or even walk round on my own, I wouldn't sit in a cinema with a group of friends because I thought something drastic was going to happen, which obviously made my teenage years very difficult as I wouldn't join in or go out with my friends so I'd be missing out on a lot of things. When I started my first college it kind of subsided, but after a year it came back really badly, this then affected my college work meaning I had to drop out, this happened 3 times to me meaning I dropped out of college three times which obviously didn't help my confidence as I felt like a failure. So I got myself a part time job and struggled on not letting anyone know...
When I reached 18 I could start going out and drinking (UK legal age) but I wouldn't as my anxiety would stop me, when I reached 19 it was a totally different story, I pushed everything to the back of my mind and went out every weekend getting so drunk I couldn't remember what I did the next day, I only got to that extent because if I didn't I'd be anxious and have numerous panic attacks, so every Saturday I'd go to the same club to get cheap drinks and absolutely hammered, that was until I met my now boyfriend on one of these nights out, 2 years later I am a totally different person, he has helped me so much and I got so much better to the point I would go on long trips out on my own with no problem.
After 2 years we are still together and happier than ever, but something happened to me to make me ill again, I now suffer with anxiety and panic attacks due to bullying which has happened in the last few months, by someone who should have known better, but with the help of my boyfriend my best friend and my family I finally bucked up the courage and went to the doctor, I am now on tablets for my anxiety and panic attacks, yes they're not going to work straight away but I feel they are slowly but surely helping me.
I went out tonight and actually enjoyed myself without having on panic attack before hand or after, I am so proud of myself and I wanted to write this quickly just to anyone who suffers with anxiety or depression or any form of mental illness just to know, you're not alone, you can get help and the sooner you do it the better, my life has been changed and its not going to work over night, but trust me, you will get there.
I hope you all enjoyed reading this, and I hope it helped someone or many people.
Abbi
xoxo
Hey,
ReplyDeleteI have recently read your blogpost. I also suffer with depression, and panic attacks and aniexty. All together it has been 5 years of trying to handle living with aniexty and depression and panic attacks, and may i say its extremwly difficult. I have been bullied throughout my whole entire school education, which i feel has made me worse. My panic attacks have got so bad I have ended up in hospital. I am glad i came across your post as it has helped me see that i am not the only one.
Thank you!